The common man falls in love. The common woman hardly ever falls in love and perhaps... no it is, the age. When you're 15 everything seems like a big deal, especially to the 15-year-old male. Some of us hide in the corner and others say it out loud but the bottom line is innocence is achieved for few during the duration of our high school lives. I don't believe every writer thinks as I do and for that matter what makes me unique is that I have a radical sense of thinking and sometimes it has to do with big problems but I guess most would say I stick to my guns. I find this saying ironic and somewhat annoying because I would like to own a gun and to shoot it every day at a range. It is the wish of many people especially boys at my age to shoot a gun but I also get me on sense of fulfilment and excitement and most of all power when holding a tool that can kill someone. Not enough that I'd go crazy but actually enough that I wouldn't go crazy.
It's funny I started talking out about love and found myself on the subject of guns and power. I think the reason why I in particular love is because it is powerful and the thing about most boys but especially me is that I crave power. I see people with love in their eyes and a girlfriend that they can hold and stroke and the opposite sex are just supposed to "coo." Power is a thing that no human can deny it from his or her selves. Even someone humble in his or her own little sick way has a love of power. That's a funny gathering of words "love of power." Don't these two go hand in hand?
People have such a heightened sense of what's important that they miss what's really important and that's their relationship with their fellow man but if a blind man for 50 years holds the liquid to drop in his eyes to cure his blindness, will he remember where his eyes are or were if he gouged them out himself? If you ask me which you are if you're reading this Oedipus got of easy by gouging out his eyes but what he forgot to do was to kill himself.
Many in fact all who are alive say if you do it it's the easy way out but is it? Just dying isn't so easy, especially if you've thought about what it would be like. As an actor I have often thought about how it would be. If you're a Christian you'll have angels singing hallelujah all day and night but if you're an atheist or maybe if the atheists are right and there is no god, then it's a whole different ball game. A world with out happiness, a world with out anything in fact. It's apathy to the fullest extent of the situation. It would be blackness, no thoughts, no dreams (good or bad) just blackness and not even the forgotten pleasure of just breathing in and out. No nightmares, which if you think about would be kind of comforting to the forgotten mind. Life is about people although and this is our place on earth.
If a monkey says something, will you listen? How about if he's a smart monkey who can predict the future or so he says. Personally I'd listen to anything a monkey could say because if it's a talking monkey that's pretty damn special right there. Heck I could get thousands of dollars for him on the black market but then you got the problem of him talking, shouting out "I've been kidnapped call the police!" That's the good thing about monkeys, they can't talk. You can, not saying that you would but you could, beat a monkey till it was dead but you can't say the same for its closest relative, my sister. Back to being serious, a monkey has the lack of intelligence so it doesn't understand its surroundings but even a human moron knows where he is.
Today my friend Han said that we are 2% chimpanzee and 98% human but in all fairness to chimpanzee's that's where we get our animalistic instincts. Women gather towards the strong guys because they're strong and they gather to these types of males because they're strong and good-looking. I've never been a grown up so I can't say much for them and I've certainly never been a woman before but I can say from what I have heard they do get smarter and go for men who can take care of them when they're older and now in getting the subject onto woman I've confused myself beyond belief, I guess as a teen I'm a dumb male walking around in apathy and stupidity in all my strength. All good things come to an end and though these are just thoughts, bad ones at that they end here I'm loosing time and energy but that's the good thing about this world it just keeps on going. As long as the world turns I'll have thoughts and I'll be back to write them down. As any military unit will tell you and also my great prestigious grandfather would say, "over and out."
